Added 3 may 2009:
ever wondered why my emotions are rarely very extreme- like feeling super happy, sad, disappointed, angry or emo? secret's revealed now! i think it's because that my mind tend to 'rehearse' something that i have anticipated. it's something like chess where u anticipate many variations of moves in advance, and it won't only be just 1 move in advance, it can be 5, 6, 7, tens, to twenties. if ur opponent makes a move that is so different from what u would have expected, then ur not a chess player! so essentially, i would hv predicted something to happen anyway.
so.. seriously, i think i have the chess player syndrome lo, i hide my feelings, trying to have a straight face or most of the time, act dumb (making stupid facial expressions lol).
and somehow, i also think that i have the self-consoling and self-motivating capability. for girls, their aunties visit them once a month. for yours super-duper ultra sincerely, my uncle visits me once a year - in the month of apr/may. lol it is a month where i get emo easily and this could be due to many many factors. it happened last year too but i guess once my mind starts to wander around the possibility of success and failures, ups and downs, thrills and dullness, expect a lower possibility of the best to come about and expect for the worst to come, i start to feel better and more positive.
it's the weird thing in me, so... the next time if something happens and ppl ask me 'don't u get upset by this?', 'aren't u disappointed?', 'why are you not surprised?', u can expect my response to be "no-lah, deja-vu, i already knew that it will happen! lol' =)
